I have not posted in a long time and a lot has happened since my last post. It has been emotionally draining.
I have been to court to face contempt charges that never should have been filed by my daughter's father. However, he immediately told me that he knew they were the wrong papers to file and is working to remedy the situation. Although seeing him for the first time in six years was intimidating we seem to be, at least at this point, willing and able to work together to get him reintroduced to my daughter in the safest possible way. I was not expecting things to go so well.
I have also reconnected with some old friends via Facebook and that makes me very happy. I was nervous to do so, with one in particular but she has matured as I have and we have been able to get to know each other again without going through all the crap that tore us apart 4 years ago which is exactly what I hoped would happen if we ever spoke again. I am very happy to have her back in my life even though she is across the country. I have missed her very much.
Today is the last day of school for the girls. I can't believe my daughter has finished kindergarten! I am not one of those moms who cries at these milestones. Not sure if it's the Zoloft that keeps me from breaking down of if it's the fact that I am so proud of the person she is and is becoming that I don't see any sadness in these milestones. I do wonder if I will feel differently when it is my boy because he is my baby. Time will tell. I am looking forward to the summer, tomorrow we are going to the library to get them signed up for the summer reading program and Friday we will go get our zoo pass and it will be the first zoo trip the baby will remember.
After some careful consideration I applied to grad school. I am going to return to the school I where I did my undergrad work and attempt a masters in mental health counseling. I'm very excited to return to school and the course schedule lets me stay home with the baby, watch the kids after school until the boyfriend gets home, and is even opposite his night class. Sometimes everything just falls into place.
On a more fun note I have made time to read and after the extremely funny "Let's Pretend This Never Happened" by Jenny Lawson. Then I read "The Marriage Plot" by Jeffrey Eugenides and I loved it. I am also a fan of "Middlesex" by him and this was just as good. Now I have caved and am reading "Fifty Shades of Grey" by whoever wrote it and frankly it's as bad as "Twilight." Actually "Twilight" is a little bit better because I can at least skim the terrible writing to get the story and I am an adult so I can acknowledge how horrible the message is that it is sending to young women. "Fifty Shades of Grey" has practically no story and is all sex. Now don't get me wrong, I appreciate a juicy book as much as anyone but I would also appreciate a decent story. I will give it the benefit of the doubt and finish it because I hate to leave any book unfinished, and I will probably finish the series so I know what everyone is talking about but seriously, if bored housewives need a thrill that bad there have to be better books out there. Or they need to spice up their own sex lives. Some day I will organize this blog and get a book review section going. . .